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“All artists need a room of their own” ~ Virginia Woolf
I Hate Computers, Sometimes
Yeah, yeah, I know, I should be finished with this Artist’s Way stuff already. Slowly, slowly, I continue on. Well, it’s interesting stuff and helping me to be creative more ofter and feel good about it, but it’s s l o w. And it’s slow, because I’m so slow on the uptake here. Ok, give me a break. I’m getting there.
My computer is not co-operating today. I’m sitting at my desk waiting for it to move along, like me I guess. I was trying to comment on another blog and the computer wouldn’t let me. How many times did I have to enter the stupid password so the comment would post? Ack! So while I was waiting I was tweeting how annoyed I was. Yes, I’m Miss Social Media now. And since I couldn’t post my comment fast enough I went over to facebook to look at that. Finally I decided I’ve had enough, closed down the computer and turned it on again, only to find out that I needed some new add-on or I won’t be able to comment on anything! Fun! Turn it on, turn it off, re-start, slap the monitor, let’s go already! Do I need this? All I want to do is make my little connections, laugh a little bit, update some stuff, write my post and be outta here!!! Is that possible? Huh?
No, the computer says. You must close down and restart to resume. Oh lucky me. I’m thrilled to pieces. I do it and here I am, late to my own party. I like getting things done early. I like waking up early and getting on with my thing. But today it’s not happening. Nope! My morning is wasting away.
I wanted to write about what I read in Walking in This World. If I could only finish this and be doing what the book says, but I’m not finished and I’m still not doing everything. I guess it’s no big deal, who’s going to give me an “F”? Maybe me. I can’t get out and walk no matter what the book says. And the Artist’s date thing? Can you call a trip to the nearest Marshall’s discount store an Artist’s Date? How about food shopping? I don’t think that’s what they meant.
The section I wanted to discuss was about insecurity. The author writes that sometimes we don’t think we’re as good as we are, or as the next guy, and it could make us hostile. We can become overwhelmed with our state of creativity, but the Universe is not. There is always endless supplies Plan B. As an artist, we’re encouraged to like ourselves just the way we are. I guess there’s hope for me after all. When we’re insecure we end up with self-pity, and that’s not great to wallow in. Feeling pity, or sorry for one’s self is a little like a self-inflicted drama, poor me thing. It’s frustrating. As I read I agreed that “self-pity is born of fatigue and a rest or a nap is beneficial daydreaming.”
After this long, slow morning with the idiot box I’m playing with I could use a bit of creative daydreaming. I’ll see you all later, I’ve got things to do!
Painting is Better Than Math
When I was in high school I was all about art. What a great time it was! No responsibilities to anything but my school work and my art. Painting was it for me. I was horrible at math, loved English, history and French. Definitely hated gym class. Bleh!
One painting class was right before geometry and I had to bring my wet paintings with me. Of course, the math teacher was not impressed. She wanted me to be good at math which I just was never going to be, sorry. This teacher complained to my parents at conferences that if I could spend more time studying math instead of painting pictures I’d be good at it. The truth was, and is, that my brain is not wired for math. Ok now we use calculators, but I still don’t know what answer I’m supposed to come up with, no matter how hard I try. I would go for extra help after school to try to get math to work for me. The teacher was so helpful and I’d seem to get it, but when class time came-whoosh!-right out of my head. What else could I do? I felt sorry for the teacher, she just didn’t understand why she couldn’t get it in my brain.
In art class I was a star! Yup! Our school won awards because of my work. The year I was editor of the art/literary magazine it won awards and I designed the yearbook cover for my senior year. No, I was not popular, except if someone said Art, then yeah, they knew who I was. One time I was up to my elbows in silkscreen ink and was going to miss the next class. I ran there, my arms all purple, and told the teacher I needed to skip her class. She didn’t mind, she knew me well. But once I didn’t run there to say I was full of paint and she put me down as cutting out. What? Me? Cutting class to me was when kids hid behind the school building to smoke, or whatever. I was painting!
Stuck for motivation, I needed an idea for my next project. I was complaining to my mom what to paint, what to paint? She was reading a Women’s Day magazine and suddenly ripped out a page, threw it at me and said “Here. Go paint this!” It was winter and the ad she tossed at me was an actor dressed like Scrooge. Well, ok, I might as well try that.
At school we were using gessoed masonite-cheap school! So I sketched the portrait on it, nice and big, and went at it with oil paints. My only hang up was the cotton candy-like eyebrows. I just couldn’t figure out what to do, but my father made a suggestion to use a big brush and blot on the paint in the shadows then detail the highlights. And voila! His idea clicked in my head and that’s all I needed to finish the work and it came out great. My whole school knew Scrooge. I used it for my college audition and the professors liked it too.
When my kids were little they were afraid of it because they said the eyes were following them around. My friends ask me if I still have Scrooge. Well yeah, my mom has it hanging in her dining room!
Out in the Garden with Arches and Me
Inspired by the photos of the azaleas and the beautiful weather a few days ago, I went into the garden to fool around with my paints. My back yard garden is really shady. It only gets direct sunlight in one little corner by the entrance gate and it’s a great spot when other flowers are in bloom. In the summer that corner is sweltering hot. I just can’t sit there too long and the shady areas are a blessing! The other day the shady parts were freezing cold and this sunny corner was perfect for me to spend some time. Until I figured all that out took time too! But I was determined to be outside in the weather and paint.
The Arches paper was calling my name when I went to the studio to get the paints and brushes. So I decided Why not? I’ll play with the new paper and see what it does. I must say it was lovely to work on. The paper took the paint well and I could use a lot of water if I wanted. I’m sure that I’m going to enjoy working with Arches paper when I plan the next work. I’ve been using Maimeri Blu watercolor paints and I found that some of the colors are different than other companies. The alizarin crimson is not as deep as the Windsor Newton I’ve used and neither is the Burnt Sienna. Those are two favorites I seem to go for and these aren’t the same. The salesperson at the art supply shop said they may be hues of the colors so I bought them last trip.
Anyway, the point is I went out and painted with no agenda other than to paint. The process was the focus. And let me tell you, I was out there painting away, going for colors, not thinking where I was, who I was, or why. It was as if nothing existed but the sun, the paper, the paint and me. Can I say Heaven? Yes. I had no idea what was happening in the world and it was divine. I was totally out of my head and on vacation!
The azaleas were fully in bloom, the shadows the tall trees made were deep and dark. The sunny spot I was in reflected off the grass near my feet. I didn’t know what to paint first so I just threw paint where I felt it should go. A monarch butterfly came by and landed on the hosta nearest to me and I drew it in.
It was really an amazing afternoon in the garden painting away, no matter what the outcome. I can’t wait to do that again!
Pomp and Circumstance
No photos for Friday this time! And I don’t have alot of time to yap either. Today my youngest son is graduating from college and you can’t imagine how proud we are of him. We are expected to be at his campus early today for the Commencement ceremony and the handing out of the degrees. The program ends later this afternoon after which we are all going out for a celebratory dinner. I’m bringing a banana because who knows when I’ll get to eat something! I’m famous for bringing bananas everywhere. Why not? They’re neat, portable and tasty! What’s not to like?
Son #2 had learning disabilities, namely auditory processing disorders that hampered his language learning skills. He’s really smart and when he was little, look out if he saw us do something, he’d be able to do the same thing. He didn’t get facial clues, couldn’t focus, tried so hard to tell us things, had his own words, and took euphemisms literally like “I have butterflies in my stomach”, he thought you meant it for real! He was labeled learning disabled in kindergarten after a horrible six months with a real witch for a teacher, I’m not kidding either. School administrators and the teacher wanted him on Ritalin, which does nothing for auditory processing issues, to which I said No Way. I wasn’t popular with them to say the least. I had to become his advocate and fight for him. They moved him into a small class with physically disabled kids, which was no fun for me, or him. But that’s what was available and I must say it helped slow down the pressure and put a cap on his frustration.
By the time he moved up to middle school he was mainstreamed. By high school he was on his own and doing excellent work independently. He applied and was accepted to a couple of colleges in our area. When he was in kindergarten the principal told me not to worry, while I was in tears, that most kids do very well and go to college. I didn’t believe her, but here we are ready to attend that graduation!
He is graduating with a degree in Health Care and Public Management, whatever that is. Monday is his first day at a job in his field. We’re thrilled and excited for him and wish him the best of everything life has to offer. It’s been an amazing ride!